Friday, September 03, 2010

Not a cheery, post-college carrer post...



Has it really been this long since my last post? February?!

So, another short and unsatisfying recap? Let's see... February was right in the beginning of my last semester.

Classes - Intro to Film (easy yet fun), Arabic 102 (hard but rewarding), Art and Archaeology of Ancient Egypt (quite possibly my favorite class I have taken), and History of African Americans in film and photography (hard, interesting class). Straight A's. Didn't even take my Egyptian final because I was doing so well! Thesis in history class had to do with transgendered African Americans. Awesome!

Graduation! GPA - 3.51, Cum Laude, Distinction and Honors in History.

Promotion in work?! Marketing director. Lots of work. Lots of time. Lots of headaches.

Ramon came back from Texas.

Death of Social Life.

So, almost four months after graduation, I find myself dually unsatisfied yet very happy. I have a job that is not related to my field of study, requires lots of late nights (which is dissipating as I write this anyway due to many factors) and yet, I am in an incredibly rewarding relationship with a boy whom I have strong feelings for.

What am I supposed to be doing right now? No one ever gave me any guidance for this part of my life. I look at jobs on these websites and they are all in business with strange titles that I know I am not qualified for nor do I want.

What do I want? I want to travel, to relax, to have fun, to learn, to read. I can't do very many of these things right now. I have to pay rent, utilities, food, cell phone, and loans. I barely make enough money as is.

I am at a major cross road in my life. I have a couple of paths before me. More are still hidden. How in the hell am I supposed to know which one to take?

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