Welcome Home

I am back from wonderful Greece now. For a full list of my strange adventures, check out http://michael-greekadventure.blogspot.com.

It is strange being back. Though I have yet to feel any effects of reverse culture-shock, I do find very many things strange and interesting. Such as carpet, commercials, hot water, ice cubes, parking laws, cereal, drying machine, and heat. And the ability to throw my toilet paper into the toilet is genius. Greece needs to get on the ball!

I have however resisted many attempts to fall back into my old life. Johnny and I broke up long before I left for Greece. I know that if you went by my blog alone, you would be very confused because it would seem that I would still be in a relationship with him. This is because I never update my blog, which is now a New Year's resolution of mine! Anyway, we aren't together and I won't be. I fell out of love. It was hard, it was painful but I did it to survive. I am finally able to be myself again without depending on another person. I can have fun, hang out with anyone I want to at anytime and not have any obligations. Johnny is finding this hard to adjust to and currently hates me, but I think its for the best.

As for me, I feel like myself. My trip abroad has taught me a lot, and allowed me to take control of my life. I am happy, very happy and I won't let people bring me down again. Anyway, enough about that. I'm home, bored and can't wait to live my life in Chicago again! Call me?

GONE!

I am in Ελλαδα or Greece! I will be until December 19! Check out http://michael-greekadventure.blogspot.com/! It is my travel blog! Afterwards, I will return to you, I promise!

The End

SO I gave up the whole painting thing. WAY too much for me to handle and totally not my thing. I've learned a lot about myself. My strengths, my weaknesses and everything I need to improve. But in the end, running my own painting business is not a good fit for me. However, I still owe a lot of money and to get myself out of this fully, I can't just cut and run. I will continue to be a sales manager for another franchisee, maybe two, because that is what I am good at.

With my free time I plan to
-Live in Chicago
-Be with Johnny
-Relax
-Tan (Yes, I know. But I am already half way there!)
-Read more books
-Wake up early
-Learn to cook
-Be with friends
-Have a relaxing summer
-Regain my sanity

The relief of it all makes me so happy! And then off to Greece!

(Short post but I am sure you do not want to hear the intimate details of my failed business)
Photo by Susan Bright

Recap My Month

Ok, so I haven't posted in forever. And my life has changed dramatically, again. Let's sum it up in one short run-on sentence.

So, I am back together with Johnny because I really am in love and it hurts not to be with him and it would be stupid for me to deny my feelings for him so we decided to move out of Pilsen cause it is dangerous and we don't like the gang-bangers and thugs and trash so we now live in Wrigleyville which is amazing and we love it cause it is always a party over there though we always see drunk guys playing bags and we don't get the obsession but anyway I also have no life cause of my painting and I should not have joined cause it is not who I am but I am committed and I need money to go to Greece which I cannot wait for cause I am so fucking excited.

Jesus, that was fun.

The Strangers is scary as hell. Go see it! Shameless promotion.

I PROMISE! From now on, I will blog more often!!!!!!!

Oh and I decided to use pictures I find off the internet cause I don't care. The picture above was taken by Wayne Rutledge.

Politico

Just a few videos to highlight the political frenzy over these two!

Why do people love Obama so much? Yeah, he is a good speaker, but how can you trust him with no experience? And why does the media love him SO much???

Hillary was the only first woman to actually have an office. All she had to do was stand there and look pretty, and she pushed for her universal healthcare plan. Though she failed, she tried. And tried hard! She's my hero! Bitch is the new black!

The F Word

Oh, God I haven't posted in forever! But I do have an excuse. Basically put, my life began to fall apart and I am now attempting to pull the pieces together.

So, I broke up with Johnny. I'm not going into much detail. It was a messy break-up, and still is. We still (unfortunately) live together. His mom asked me to not be too harsh and kick him out, though she completely understands why I would do so. She has to look after her son, and I understand. So, I must endure another month.

How did this happen? I really don't want to get into the details. This has been such a hard time for me, that it still hurts. I've made very bad decisions this past month, and wondered constantly who I have become.

Relationships are funny things. Love is an even funnier. People use the word too much. I did at first, when I certainly wasn't. He was my first real relationship, and, as so many do, I thought everything was different between us. That we did really love each other. And of course the truth was that indeed we didn't. We were in love with the idea of being in love. But in time, I did fall for him. And to give that up was the terrible. I don't love Johnny anymore. And I didn't at the time when I broke up with him.

To let him move on with his life is a difficult thing to do. And worse yet, to witness him move on every day killed me. However, I did the same to him. I began to move on in front of him and I killed him. Then I went and fucked things up.

I began to be confused. Seeing Johnny everyday, and beginning to get along with him made me wonder if what I had done was right. So, I fell back to what I knew. Johnny. And at the same time I was with someone else, who I do have real feelings for. I have no idea how or why I did it, but I regret it everyday. And now, I believe I am ending up with no one. Perhaps it is best. But at the same time, I don't want to lose what may have been. Perhaps I should go to church again...

Aside from my fucked up love life, I have been sick as hell. Hit full face with a strange virus that makes my head feel like its is blowing up, my stomach churn, my throat swell and my head to spin. For two days I laid in bed and still I cannot get over it. I think the city's homeless people are getting me sick!

Oh and there was a drive-by outside my apartment. Wonderful.

So, this is my amazing life so far. Sick, scared and alone.

P.S. I will no longer use photos, as (somehow) the original photographer of one of the photos I used saw that I took her picture. I didn't know people actually read this thing...

New Year!

First post of the 2008! Whoo!

Ok, so to ring in the new year, I thought I would break up with Johnny. So I did.